Saturday, July 5, 2008 @ 3:49 AM
if my Heart was stone.
Homecoming was extremely tiring, but fun. Dunk dunk dunk. Ah, I've never had so much fun since I-don't-know-when. Only bad thing about today was Tjioe. When people asked him for donations he took coupons out of MY wallet!
Fuck him.
I have learnt today that I'm very insecured. I feel like I'll fall into some bottomless pit of doom if I'm nudged. And the low confidence and self-esteem doesn't help. Sometimes I can't help but feel so secluded, alienated, as if I'm alone in this. And no, I don't mean I don't cherish my friends, I do. I love each and every one of my friends, and I apologise if I practised the cheekopeh habit on you :P
I wish I could buy self confidence. I wish I can buy natural good looks. I wish, I wish, I wish I didn't have so many ridiculous and selfish wants. Ah, I hate myself.
saw familiar faces today. And yes, I saw you Nat, I think, but you were busy with something, so yea. Oh sheesh and today we met this sadist father who dunked his son for like mroe than ten times! And then Terence and I thought that scars on his legs were cane marks. Ah, poor boy.
I wish for all the unhappiness in the world to dissipate, like my faith and hope in life.
tis' the way
Reach my prismic soul.
Hello I'm Ben. I love my array of dreams and weird encounters. I want everyone around to be happy.